Wow!! News and other stuff

Well as you can see the blog has been changed around a bit. I like it for now.

In other news, I've told those that are closest to me, I've also announced on facebook but now I think I've just gotta share here. This blog has been with me longer than myspace or facebook. I don't have the heart to ever stop blogging. Even if I don't always have the time. But I'm working on that. ;-)

The story....
Last year on the first day of school (or was it the second) Sym didn't get home as quickly as she normally does. Instead I received a phone call from some strange out of town number. I answered and it was Sym. She asked me if her friend Savannah's dad could take her home. I asked her "Who is Savannah and where are you?" She then told me that Savannah had gotten off at Sym's bus stop instead of her own and Sym walked her home. Luckily it was just around the corner from her bus stop at the apartments. I then told her that I was on my way and to be waiting outside. I could have strangled her neck but at the same time, I love the kindness in her heart. I did ground her for a week for trying to get a stranger to take her home.
He actually told her that no she needed to call her mom.
That's when I met him. Johnny, at first site I saw something but dismissed it. NO joke. I thought eh he's older and probably not interested. We met. We chatted a little about the kids. Then I took Sym home and grounded her.
A week later Sym went to play with Van and spent the night with her too while I slung pizzas. I totally didn't see that he was interested in me at all.
Then a few weeks later we moved into our new home. The condo!!! The first weekend after the move, Savannah spent the night with us. I showed him and his older daughter Chy the place. full of boxes and chaos but for the most part liveable. LOL
After Van spent the night, Johnny came by the next day and picked up Sym. Then a couple of days later I get a call from him.
He said "If you want to go out some time let me know I'll take you out"
I told him "Well you are on the phone with me now. Why don't you just name the time and day and we'll go from there."
Seriously ya'll. I had no freakin clue he was even interested until that phone call.
And our first date was Sunday breakfast at Crackerbarrel. lol

Several road trips, moving people, and 10 months later last night at Pablos Lee branch at 5:15pm with a pitcher of margaritas, guacamole and salsa to witness, he asked me if I would marry him. I said yes. He gave me a ring and the Server gave us free shots of tequilla. It couldn't have been more perfect. :-)
Oh and Sym knew he was going to propose to me all along. YEah! She didn't tell me anything!!! I may have to ground her for witholding info from her momma. ;-) Just kidding.

Holy Moley!!! Lots a going on...

Well ladies and gents, I've done it. I've returned to the part time job at pizza slut. I'm delivering pizzas again to build up my Sym Birthday and Christmas nest egg. I know ya'll are already used to me not post much anymore but it is about to get even more sparse unless I am at the day job and just bored.
I'm getting really tired of things at the day job but a little bit worried about just quitting. I would hate to leave my team lead. She's super sweet and both of us have put so much into our jobs that it is tough to just walk away.

On the knitting front, I've been rather sparse with that too. I've only been knitting on Callie's wash cloths in which I've already knit 2 and started a 3rd. I hope to finish it tonight and give them to her on Monday. That's if I am not totally exhausted after delivering tonight.

I was hoping to win the Florida lottery, but I didn't. Would be nice if I did though.
I have lots of things I need to take pics of for you lovely people. The camera in the D house stinks though. It is on my list to get a better one once I get the Sym stuff taken care of.

OH!! I've signed up for the Dish Rag Tag Sequel!! I suggest ya'll do the same! It is a fun Kal!!!
Go now and sign up if Emily has room!!!
http://dishragtag.yarnmiracle.com/people/new


Lots of love to ya'll! I'm still reading your blogs and leaving comments when I can. Big hugs!

Today's Horoscope.....

Aquarius Horoscope for Saturday December 1, 2007
(Jan 20 - Feb 18)

"A fresh wave of energy washes into your life today and you could be quite upbeat about upcoming social activities. Unfortunately, your optimism may run into practical considerations that prevent you from doing what you want. Don't let discouragement overtake your enthusiasm. Instead, remember that some things will just take longer than you wish."


You know guys, it is still so weird to me when I can apply a horoscope to my current life events.Is that why I still read them? (nah they just come to my inbox daily and I don't feel like fighting it. Cause one day it will tell me to go buy a lotto ticket and I'll win a couple a billion dollars.) ;-)

Tonight is the company Christmas party for the day job. It is at a fabulous place with lots of fun folks, good food, free drinks, and 2 bands. So what seems to be the "practical consideration(s) that prevent me from doing what you want"? Hmm. My date canceled on me last minute. Okay what the hell?!
Why the hell would a guy cancel on this beautiful knitter/single mom? His work called him in. Irony? I think so.
"Don't let discouragement overtake your enthusiasm. Instead remember that some things will just take longer than you wish." Yeah discouragement took over yesterday when I tried to find another guy to with me. Then I just realized that no, I'm not going to let this opportunity of having a good time get me down. So I asked a BFF to be my date. I've contemplated quite alot from this turn of event.
I don't think I'll ever ask a guy out unless the guy and I have already been dating for a bit. LOL This isn't the first time a guy has dropped the ball when I've passed it to them. I should be used to it by now, but guess what folks. I'm not! I refuse to get used to it. I know that one day I'll pass the ball to someone they will catch it and run it for a touch down for me. I've just got to be patient.
XOXOXO
Lesley
“Creativity is allowing yourself to make mistakes.Art is knowing which ones to keep.”
—SCOTT ADAMS, THE DILBERT PRINCIPLE

PS. I sold my mirror that I attached glass to with good old silicone about 2 years ago. I sold it for $35 to my co-worker. I know it is going to a good home.
Here are the pics:
this is a dragon fly I shaped onto it.


Here is the entire mirror

Yeah I took the pic at work with my camera phone but hey at least there is a pic of it. LOL

Great! Something new to the crap list

The Crap List

1. Work kicking my ass
2. Finances Kicking my ass- Why does everything have to cost so F*&@ing much?
3. Men ha! don't make me laugh! Like this one really needs to be here! There's not any other than the X who is just MIA see number 2.
4. Getting Sym's B-Day gift What to get this angel? I havent' the slightest!!!
**and for the new one
5. Shingles. Yeah I'm freaking infected! Isn't this an old person's disease? 3 out of 4 people have told me that their grandparent have had it. WTF? How does a almost 30 year old get this? I got this red letter from Sym's school Monday saying that there are a couple of outbreaks of the chicken pox at the school. Did my darling angel who has been vaccinated carry this home to me? Could that have done it? An infested inquiring mind wants to know! So I looked it up on the good ol' internet. They say it can be stress induced. Lovely huh? Yeah! That's me totally full to the brim with stress here! Yooo-hoo! Come on infestation!
I just got a call from the doc too. They want me to come in tomorrow to give another blood count. So I have an infection somewhere on top of this infestation! I hate "in-" words! They said that when they stuck me Wednesday that my WBC was really high so now they need another one. How nice? I'm taking this valtrex medicine and aleve for the pain. I'm freaking nauseated! More spots have appeared on my body and my right leg hurts. I think even my face is hurting as well as my arms. I'm itching too! Which makes this insane! Why is the medicine making me itch? I wasn't itchin prior to the meds? Damn infestations!!!!

So if you dare ask me "How are you today Lesley?"
This is what I'm telling you "I'm super thanks for asking! I have the shingles and I'm all about sharing it with people who are my age so that I'm not alone in my ailment. So step up a little closer! You know you want it too!" Blah ha ha ha!
Where's the goat when I need him?
XOXO
I hope the internet won't give ya'll my ailment.
Please don't tell me your grandparent(s) have contracted this too. I really don't want to feel any older. I have nothing against old people mind you but it is bad enough when I'm not even 30 yet and 45+ year old me keep hitting on me EVERYWHERE! Thanks!! Love ya'll!!
Lesley

Thank you!! Ya'll are the bomb!!! and an update!

Thank you for all the compliments on my blog. The color change was SOOO necessary. I figure that the change on my knitting blog would do me good. I'm trying to find a 3 column blog template. I want to put my blogs/thoughts/writings in the middle and then all my groovie side bar stuff around it. I wonder if I'll have to go to word press for that. Grr. I don't want to have to move!

Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts too through this VERY difficult time in my life. Whenever I've felt down I've been going back to your comments to help me feel better. It has been a rough week and I can't wait till the weekend!!!

I've discovered this week that my soon to be X has been dating an 18 year old. He's 34. Yeah, that one stings. But I know I shouldn't even be concerned with it but that 10 year emo tie is still tryin to hang on inside. Where are my anti-Emo scissors when I need them? Damn the little trolls for hiding my shit when I need it most!!!
We haven't spoken since I found out from the little girl. God she's an idiot. So is he. Talking about this is sooo making me sick!

That's another thing too. I've not been able to eat like I normally do since this discovery 2 days ago. Everytime I put food to my mouth my stomach turns and twists a little and I feel like I am going to throw up. I'm fighting it, but I've cut back on food ALOT.

Also I'm smoking alot more than I used to. Bad bad bad. I know. But I did however write out a list of things I can change and what I can't change. These lists are growing every hour. It is still tough to focus. As you can tell, I'm at work and blogging about my sorrows instead of writing down my processes. Focus focus focus on work Damn it Lesley!!

I'm thinking about starting up Stitches & Brews again. But instead of Brews just stitching. I think maybe hitting a coffee shop again. I miss seeing Brook & Robbie. I feel so down I need to get out again! I've been getting out though. My AC broke and I've been staying with my buddy Tara. Including Tuesday when everything went down. I miss my home though. There's so much I need to change and rearrange there. I've got so much work to do and not enough time to do it!!!

All I have been wanting to do is knit little things, but I'm swatching for Coachella now! Yay!!! I started it last night at Tara's. I'm hoping the AC guy gets out there and can fix it!!! It is terribly hot there! I miss my home. I want to make it our home again. A place where I can feel good, look at it and feel relaxed. I've got to get rid of the rest of his shit. Anybody need some useless junk?

I hope to get some pics of my knitting tonight. I'm pretty proud of it all!
XOXOXO
Love ya'll!!!!
Lesley



***Update: I think a Bad Ju-Ju is a necessity. Yeah I've got enough black yarn I think. Maybe some brown & peach color for the face too. blahh ha ha !!****

Promises kept....

I had originally written that I would fill ya'll in on what crazy things have been happening in the random world of Lesleyd. As hard as it is for me to publicly say it I shall....
IF you recall a month or two ago, I told ya'll that I was no longer referring to my husband as DH but instead Tom. There is a reason for it. We have had lots of troubles in the past 6-8 months. These troubles have caused a quite deal of stress for me, to the point that my mind can not be freed from it. I've tried antidepressants, alcohol, no alcohol, meditation, knitting like a fiend (only to unravel it because it wasn't turning out right) and I can't escape it.
He has been spending time with other women. He spends his money on other people instead of giving it toward bills, he is unaffectionate (doesn't want any affection from me either)and hasn't said I love you since March. Until last week when I dropped the bomb on him.

Here's the bomb. I have begun the steps to getting a divorce. He hasn't had the papers served yet but the lawyer has been paid, and papers are with the server.
For the past week, he has been staying with one of the girls that he's been spending his nights with over the past 3 months.

Although, I'm taking this step to gain spirit and peace it is still hard as hell and has been the toughest chapter to close. We've been a couple for 10 years, married 8 and have a beautiful 7 year old together. I hate that it has come to this. I wish we could live happily ever after but it is impossible. The 8 years married have been the hardest, saddest years of my life that has left me stunted. I've not grown as person from being with him in fact I feel I've regressed to a shell at times. From here on I shall share little tidbits about it. In fact I have another blog that is private that I've blogged about these feelings and all around sadness that he's caused just within the past year. It deserves its own place to hang. I prefer this blog to be happy. I love sharing good news instead of news that is viewed sad or bad.


XOXOXO
Lesley

Frig Art Friday.......

I didn't take any pics today. However here are a few pics of my angel instead!!!









Here's the ticket for Bonnaroo. It just arrived today. Sighs......... sniffle.... .............

Oh well it was a lovely thought......

Well folks, I'm down. Due to yet again unexpected financial urgencies, I can't go to Bonnaroo. My ticket arrives Tomorrow. I'll get to look at it, smell it, then sell it on eBay. What sucks is that I've used up all my cash from delivering to pay off this unexpected thing and now here it is, 13 days to the day and I can't go. Wouldn't you know it? I get all excited about something and then it gets ripped out from under me. :-(

Oh well. I'd rather go to Paris anyways!!!


Here's the eBay Link if you are interested in purchasing my ticket

Ya'll Rock!!!

Thank you everyone for the advice!!! Alot of the things ya'll have mentioned I had been thinking about doing to help her out.
Especially Anon's because it is inevitable that she'll get into that situation again and I can't bail her out every time. She has to face it on her own and come up with the cash herself.
I love my friend she is super sweet. I relate to her hard times I've been there myself. I hate that she has no one that can help her a little to the whole thing like my family did for me. They never paid the bill but they did buy me groceries so I could have food while I paid off the horrid debt. She's got a stocked fridge only prob is that if they turn the power off all of the food goes to waste.
I've not checked into the energy crisis help yet Crissy. I know that the power company down here handles that. But since she made the mistake of showing her un-lady-like unpleasant side, it looks pretty grim.
Last night I called her she was at another friends house who is going to loan her the money. The other friend loaned her the money to keep her lights on. Which I am relieved that she doesn't have to go without her power today.
Yay! Sighs....
I'm just gonna hope that the hints I leave out for her will eventually get through. She needs to start looking at the options and taking advantage of government help. Especially now that she has a serving job.
Tonight folks I am cutting fabric!!
I'm making some loot to sell at Bonnaroo, maybe eBay too.
But for now I leave you with some southern spring goodness that I took from my car driving down the road yesterday...
















Oh and here are my 2 angels!! Sym and her cousin Evie sitting at Evie's new desk Saturday. They are just too cute! Evie calls Sym her big sister! I think that is the sweetest! I'm grateful for that.
I love you my blog friends!!!
XOXOXO

And flow visits me... Yeah That's just how it goes!!

Got to take the good with the bad (at least that has been my philosophy of life since I've been with my DH). Never fails!!

Good news:
We had an Awesome anniversary Tuesday!

Bad news:
Flow came into town for her monthly visit on Wednesday :-(

Good News:
I got free lunch today

Bad News:
I had to spend it with my manager.

Good News:
Everyone at work was impressed with my baby girl booties for the co-worker

Bad News:
I didn't finish the hat.

Good news:
The insurance company cut my lien holder a check to pay off the car and me a check for $1049.57 (that's my down payment baby!!)

Bad News:
My car dealer friend has a car that would be perfect for me but I can't go see him until Saturday morning. (The car was just traded in today and they've got to inspect it.)

Good News:
My sister and my new bro-in law got her pics from the wedding and is coming over tonight to watch the wed video & let me copy her Pic CD.

Bad News:
Tom is leaving around that time to go back to work.

Okay that's all for tonight.
Love ya'll!!!
Sorry if I've been too crazy the past couple of days. Flow gets to me like that.
XOXOXO